G-d, Grant me the Serenity to Accept the things I cannot change, The Courage to change the things I can, And the Wisdom to know the difference. For a several years, I ended every day with the Shema, the Lord's Prayer and the Serenity Prayer. I understood the words of Shema, and held on to … Continue reading The Courage to Change the Things I Can
Oh Baby Baby
I landed in the emergency room again yesterday. It was the usual fun and games until I noticed the slight worry lines and furrowed brows as one technician after the other tried to get my baby to move. I ate chocolate, no response. I changed positions, no response. I got poked and prodded with the ultrasound … Continue reading Oh Baby Baby
Sober Thoughts for Sober Days
Do you have any friends that died? My friends died from the consequences of too many bad decisions. I'm not judging them, in fact, I am slightly amazed that it isn't me going into cardiac arrest after holing myself up in a decrepit apartment for days on end with only a bottle and a bag … Continue reading Sober Thoughts for Sober Days
The Hopsital
It's been a long week. It started with a belly ache. My little girl complained a bit and then bounced off the kaitana, excited about summer camp. I don't really know what changed over the course of the next three days, but by Sunday morning, we were sitting in the doctor's office with a withering … Continue reading The Hopsital
Incompetent
I went for an ultrasound today to see how my body is handling this pregnancy. I found out that it's struggling mightily to hold on. It's an absolutely horrible thing to watch your body do something that your brain does not want it to do. When you cannot hold in baby for a long enough … Continue reading Incompetent
Colloquially Speaking 