How is she? They ask, everywhere I go. Sometimes I answer. It's hard. They're trying something new. We still don't know. And sometimes I don't. Fine, thank god. They want to know news, they want to know progress...they want to know black and white. I confide in some. I deflect others. Mostly, I seethe. I … Continue reading How Are You?
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I am too tired...too tired of writing about the pain...every damn year... I am too tired of defending this land...speaking up for her... But I can't remain silent... Because my heart still beats... And other hearts still are silenced... By hatred...by fear... By those who would like to see my drowning arms flail in a … Continue reading Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.
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17...just off the plane and I'm miserable. I call my eldest brother. I haven't seen him in years. He went to yeshiva when he was 13...I was 8...I got his room. When he came home for the occasional weekend or chag, I had to join my sisters in the attic. I don't really know him … Continue reading 31
1 in 5
Dear 4 in 5, I don't know what I will accomplish by writing this...but I want to be clear that I am not looking for your sympathy...or for you to understand. You will never understand...that is why you are the 4 in 5. I am the 1 in 5. And though I cannot speak for … Continue reading 1 in 5
Complete
I write when I am complete…when my love, my fear, my pain is whole…when I get what it is I am feeling. I write from a place of understanding…from acceptance…from the perspective of journey's end. Last year, I didn't write. I was torn up inside and out. I was in too much pain about my … Continue reading Complete
Colloquially Speaking 