We’re going to the US in two weeks. It’s a big trip. It’s a huge trip. We haven’t been there for three years and when we left last time we were a family of three. When we went to get our son’s Report of Birth at the US embassy the consular clapped as she declared … Continue reading Jonathan Pollard and a Coloring Book
The Rabbi’s Daughter
"So I watched this thing…it's going around…" They are looking at me, waiting, and I realize it is too late. I will say it. "It's called The Rabbi's Daughter…" My father's eyes raise and I almost swallow the words, even though I know I can't. "It reminded me of you…of us." And then I am … Continue reading The Rabbi’s Daughter
How I Say I Love You
"What - you love each other?" she asks, catching us in an easy embrace. We share a smile as I lift my head off your chest and answer her with a slight nod. "Ok" is the only thing she cares to say as she scampers off with her brother, leaving us relaxing comfortably together in … Continue reading How I Say I Love You
Instead
I don't know what is churning, twisting and pulling inside me. I don't know why I feel a NEED. I don't know how to name it, claim it...own it. I don't know where to turn to release it. But I know that I don't want whatever it is. Because it makes me feel not good … Continue reading Instead
Choke
When there are words…unspoken…held back by the unwillingness…for them to be heard…they stick…to my throat…and swell…until I cannot breathe…and I am gasping…begging for release. You know…how I feel…what I really want…yet…you think….that if it remains…clawing into my brain…it will not fester…brew…and explode into your life…making things…uncomfortable…for you. But I…am not you…and cannot do…the things you … Continue reading Choke
Colloquially Speaking 