(trigger warning - please don't read if you are not in a safe place) Dear Asshole, I wonder, when you kiss your wife, if you remember what it felt like to shove your tongue into my mouth...your teeth hitting mine as you demanded I open my lips more.. I remember. I can still taste your … Continue reading Dear Asshole
Category: Sexual Abuse/PTSD
Dear Spouses,
Dear, dear spouses of victims of survivors of the broken people... Thank you. Thank you for not letting us push you away. Thank you for seeing past the desperate facade we thought was infallible. Thank you for understanding that not everyone wants to be touched…or can be touched…and adjusting your needs accordingly. Thank you for … Continue reading Dear Spouses,
Forgiveness
The tears won’t stop. They fall…without my permission…as I try to understand why my mind isn’t letting me process this. It’s just a damn apology, I tell myself. Accept it. Just take it and let it all go. But something is holding me back. I call my husband… I tell him through sobs…and he gets … Continue reading Forgiveness
Snip…Snip…Snip.
Tomorrow... It's not his birthday, not yet. But my mother is here and I want to share this with someone. Besides, gan starts soon and I don't want to have to worry about lice. So we're cutting his hair tomorrow. Just a small little ceremony. Get to the barber at 7:30 so we're the first … Continue reading Snip…Snip…Snip.
Dying To Forget
Sometimes, late at night when I should be asleep, I remember. I remember how I used to be…when things were bad…when I was a bad little girl… And I wonder…if I could talk to her…what would I say? I should say…the things I was taught to say to her… I’m so sorry you’re hurting. It’s … Continue reading Dying To Forget
Colloquially Speaking 