Broken Grief

This feeling…this sad feeling…covers me like a blanket…suffocating me slowly. It is not a new feeling…it is an anticipated one. Do not project…they told me…do not lose faith in humanity…you can never know the outcome…you can never know for sure. So I tried not to project…not to expect to be hurt… But I am not … Continue reading Broken Grief

Dear Spouses,

  Dear, dear spouses… of victims… of survivors… of the broken people... Thank you. Thank you for not letting us push you away. Thank you for seeing past the desperate facade we thought was infallible. Thank you for understanding that not everyone wants to be touched…or can be touched…and adjusting your needs accordingly. Thank you … Continue reading Dear Spouses,

Forgiveness

The tears won’t stop.They fall…without my permission…as I try to understand why my mind isn’t letting me process this.It’s just a damn apology, I tell myself.  Accept it.  Just take it and let it all go.But something is holding me back.I call my husband…I tell him through sobs…and he gets it.I know, he says…I know … Continue reading Forgiveness