There’s a pit in my stomach. It’s there because of a stupid video I watched that I didn’t want to watch but that I had to watch because I felt compelled by the title and hoped that I would see something different from what I did see. It was stupid, really. There were some kids, … Continue reading The Boys Are Back In Town
Category: Leaving Orthodoxy
Instead
I don't know what is churning, twisting and pulling inside me. I don't know why I feel a NEED. I don't know how to name it, claim it...own it. I don't know where to turn to release it. But I know that I don't want whatever it is. Because it makes me feel not good … Continue reading Instead
Choke
When there are words…unspoken…held back by the unwillingness…for them to be heard…they stick…to my throat…and swell…until I cannot breathe…and I am gasping…begging for release. You know…how I feel…what I really want…yet…you think….that if it remains…clawing into my brain…it will not fester…brew…and explode into your life…making things…uncomfortable…for you. But I…am not you…and cannot do…the things you … Continue reading Choke
When The Tigers Broke Free
“Are you excited that gan is almost over?” I ask my little girl as she cuddles up to me. “Umm…yes…no…no!” She’s uncertain and for a moment I think she doesn’t really understand what summer vacation is. Her face scrunches up as she digs into her mind for the words to express what she means. “I’m … Continue reading When The Tigers Broke Free
To Sleep Or Not To Sleep…That Is Not A Question
Shavuot. That little holiday no one ever focuses on. The one where we celebrate receiving the Torah. The one where we eat cheesecake because someone thought it would be a nice cultural addition to a Jewish holiday. The one where I'm supposed to keep the kids quiet all morning so my husband can sleep after … Continue reading To Sleep Or Not To Sleep…That Is Not A Question
Colloquially Speaking 