It’s been…six years…filled with love…joy…happiness…hardships…and longing…for you. My happily-ever-after…standing before the lights…watching the flames dance…to the beat of the perfect little life inside me…died with the last lick of fire…and left a hole…where you used to be. The day you broke away approaches… I am not ready…to face the dark memories…the images of you…slipping into … Continue reading Six Years
Category: Death and Mourning
B’Yeshiva Shel Maaleh…
I am in a bed with itchy blankets…lumpy pillows…and an empty…hollow…belly. My son is down the hall, across from this ward...attached to life. I am weak, scared and uncertain. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. I don't know if I can even join the many people who are praying … Continue reading B’Yeshiva Shel Maaleh…
In The Arms Of An Angel
I am writing this so that you will not forget…so that you will have something to hold onto when she is not near…and to help you keep the promise you made….. It is morning, and I am not sure why I am anxious. I have arranged to go to the hospital to spend time with … Continue reading In The Arms Of An Angel
Father, I Dare For Fear
I am sitting in the white van with the red stripe. I am apprehensive and a little confused. I do not know what is going on, only that for weeks there has been a nervousness to my father that came with anxious phone calls and whispered unknowns. The twenty-minute drive in the gloomy Ohio spring … Continue reading Father, I Dare For Fear
I Miss You
It’s this time of year again and I’m thinking of you…wondering…how you’ve been. Wishing you could see me now…look at me with those big, big eyes…maybe even smile. It’s late…you should have come home from school long ago…I ache to see you burst through the door. The bag we would have picked…together…slung over your slight … Continue reading I Miss You
Colloquially Speaking 