My battle for self rages on.
I am parts of me and all of me, separate and whole all at once.
My mind, always racing, pulls ahead of the heaviness in my heart.
But my heart comes in a million broken pieces, able to extend beyond possibility. It does not know it has to follow any rules. It can be lagging behind while leading.
My body… my body has crashed and burned in a spectacular show exposing the fragility of skin and bones.
And I am left starved.
Hunger is a passion. It sears and claws and begs… Feed me… touch me… consume me… Take this part of me that wants. It is dying to be free. Feel it, smooth and soft, and jagged. Breathe in the scent of discontent. Embrace the folds of tenderized skin. There is beauty somewhere here; it is dying to be seen. Stoke the flame, stroke the shame bring me to my knees.
My heart and mind race past my body, flapping in the breeze.
They do not stop.
They do not see.
They do not want it to be me.