I can’t go there.
But I wanted you to know – anyone who knows me and understands me – that I sent them an e-mail today.
Please remove me from your mailing list. I do not wish to write for a magazine such as yours – regardless of your twisted bias on the Weberman case, it did not belong in a ‘family magazine’, was an embarrassment to you and an insult to countless victims of sexual abuse and molestation. I will no longer be purchasing AMI and never want my name associated with it again.
I had mixed emotions. On one hand, they published my writings…validated my skill…on the other hand….they invalidated everything I believe in.
And when I pressed send, something rolled over my chest and I wanted to scream but no sound would come out so I sat and I sank into myself and fell apart as I thought of what all this meant.
I know people think I am outspoken and open about things.
I know people assume I don’t hold back.
But I know what I can’t ever say.
And I know the stand I wish to take is denied me for reasons I WON’T say.
I know I am protecting someone.
That is my choice.
It is the right choice for me.
But in some ways, I wish I could have pointed a finger and accused.
So I can only take a stand for other people.
And I just did, in my own little way.
And it was scary.